OMG has COVID been tough !!!!! I became dispirited over Christmas and after New Years when the lifting of restrictions and re-connection with my fellow critters could not happen. I have been uniquely challenged by my own situation and history to stay optimistic and hopeful about our future. Meaningful endurance has been tough.
When an old trigger showed up over the holidays, I catapulted into a snake pit of despair -taking several others with me. Luckily I have folks who support and challenge me to ” get over it”, to “get into the present moment. ” Finding humility, gratitude and self compassion, gradually transformed my tragic state.
Then I entered into a 6 day cleanse and fast. Clear fluids only with 4 hydrotherapy sessions. All this in preparation for a colonoscopy. I was challenged by this choice. But enjoyed it more than I could imagine. My mental acuity sharpened, I had a nice level of domestic energy, and my intuition and patience deepened. I developed a more coherent, stronger sense of myself such that the earlier pain was softened, almost gone.
Instead of imaging the worst, I am now thinking about what I want in 2021. I’m wondering what it will be like when the last vaccine is jabbed into somebody’s arm, when the last case of COVID 19 is eradicated.
Among other things, next December I hope to have a big party where I perform my newest Solearis solo. I want to be a kinder warmer parent and friend.
